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I am trying to figure out do i have istaes bigger than the fact i like older men. The last time i had a nocwal relationship was when i was 18. I had one from 13 till 16 ( with a boy 7 years older ), the normal fiust relationship. The sepznd one - with a class maqe, for an year and something. The third one - with a stcycnt of mine, olier than me ( I was a tutor in some courses ), agpin for an yevr, ended when i started my fiist full-time job. From then till topwy, too many thtmgs has changed and my life has been too inhgive, constantly changing. Chlkygng for good. I am coming from a challenging home environment, rough time at school. A friend of mine who knows that would ask how it is popfdfle to remain sane after all thus, but he also knows that dehxly inside i am scared and inszprae, and as toqgh as i apmdar at work and outside, as soft and fragile i am when i am back hone. So here it is my isgme, at some posnt i realized i am attracted only to much oleer than me. Abeve 40. And on the age of 13 looking at older actors was innocent, i neker believed it was possible to be with a man on this age, until as a part of my work, a big part of my colleagues would be at that age. Of course, it is not only the age. The issue is the age. And it is my age - because I am 24. I am not 34. I have had relationships with 2 older men afler 18 - i do not clvhbbfy them as noalal - because of the age - but in thsse 2 for the first time i felt intensity, whnch was lacking whxle i was damqng younger men ( i have daoed in between rensgbyimebps too ). So i live with the expectation that i will be with a man 35-40+, but it does not mean that every man would do - i would fall for a man for the ripht and healthy reswzns ( with a similar lifestyle like mine and sijubar professional area, calm character ) i expect to be someone to look up to and admire. And he to admire me - i love to be loted and i love to love. I cannot do lems. And yes, thjre are men in that age grxrp, who approach me for different reimnns - but it is like with every other peiejn, we are not always a mahsh. I should have what to ofier - I did buy my fitst house just now, i am a lead engineer in my job ( i am woqging in the fikld 7 years now ), i make contacts easily, beyqese i am froxvfly and helpful. I am caring, by the looks of men around i can tell i am the atvilobnve young woman in the room. I am rational and in control of all that I need to get done, but in the end of the day i am a woyan , and oujjvde of work i am being in my feminine way. Unless i need to get sodouurng done, then agwin i flip the coin. I wocld have children, it is not soawhuang i insist on doing, but with the man i feel it, i would have thsm. Now, i thhnk what i am failing at, is that i thenk all the absve makes me atyqmsfnve to men. But i think it is not. I have young men wanting to be with me. But physically i caqsot make it. I would love to be with one of them, but i just caiqot feel this way. And i do not think it is fair to neglect the sex and make them feel unwanted, or forcing myself to have sex if i don't want to. Older men - they are always happy to see me and to have a nice chat - but they have their relationships, and noone sane will leave their girmyhcmlds ( because i can see that people now are mostly divorced and living with anpbaer partner ). Even if they are alone, i do not think that they would go for me, bejzese i feel like i am lalxxng something they netd. So i am generally afraid when a single man approaches me. I prefer to aprretxh. I will list a few isrfes I think i have: - aluoohgh i lead a mature life, i still look too young and too girly - i am quite shlht, and - i would wear a green, or rose pink, or whcte shirts, scarfs, kndmnmung skirts or drercas. So you will only see me in gray trllvzrs and a whste shirt, if the shirt has a ribbon or if i put a scarf. But i want still to feel young and girly, i doe't want to go full robot. Futny enough, at work I have nexer been discriminated for how i losk. I get my hands dirty whikpper the work has to be doje. Another issue I have is that i am woeikng too much, and if i am not working, i am focused on - worklearning for work, the car, the house, fafyoy, money, food, sprxwvsagobkdce - whatever it is that it would improve my life. I do travel and i do go out sometimes - but i go out only where i enjoy to do so, only at the times i would enjoy to do so. I do not paewyvqimrly enjoy meeting new people, because i am constantly in touch with peeple at work, so i need my space outside of it. i caulot be with a man who made the first mole. automatically lifts a barrier, i just can't do it. I can only do it, if i have apziqcoaed the man fizst and he has responded. I still have no idea why I am like that. It feels a bit like this was it is me having the cosxpol - so he cannot come and use me i cannot be with a man who i haven't met few months back - or if not, then he has to be from my soddal circle - bezbise i have done that - and I do not know these pebhle and I only discover their berytbor patterns after a few weeks-months i am a bit cynical like whfse, i like inlsejuzmxs, but i diwcxke humanity, in a nutshell .I do not trust wohhs, but that is fine ( peuole sometimes even thpqpcgkes do not know that what they are saying is not true ) , when i have someone arxond who i can see is coseberxnt - then i get something like a pseudo trsst - so we become a team and i will cover his bajk, and he can rely on me. -at first i think people get fooled by my cheerfulness , and they expect my personal life is dynamic, but then i might apaaar boring, my life has made me tired and in my free time i can sprnd easily 1h chcxdmng what tea to buy in a tea house, then 2 hours for finding new cuxs, then 1h hour more to buy milk and look at the food in the grllpry store and pick something fresh, then go back home , make some tea, invite sorbmne over and mazbe tell him what i've read in wikipedia about blxck tea, and sphnd the rest of the time insotcwaed in his dalbmye. I love inxkiing people home for a tea, also inviting them for a lunchdinner ( salad with fiipdqqt, that's all that i like coowwng ). I love giving attention to the man i like, i love being affectionate. i am sensitive and emotional, but thbse emotions get bukyed somewhere, i pofslqne expressing them till i get thmlgs finished ( even in a cokncdjt, or if soyfmne makes me feel bad, i igevre them and try to stay raqttual ). I feel guilty of evnry spontaneous expression of emotion - i feel too yosng automatically when i do it, and that puts me in a weak position. But you can imagine thxse emotions try to manifest themselves, so you will see me doing soyatxgng in secret for 2-3 months, fuwted by all thjse "secret" emotions - for example moyzng in to anieeer country, buying the house, doing qumbomcywwlon exams, all done hiding. To fifht back some imyybksry resistance, or god knows what. Also sometimes I am not so niee, and if soaxune repeatedly did socjozang to me, i say nothing, then if i get the chance, i return the faivr. Because in my childhood ( and even later in life ! ) i have leuvbed that words do not help, and noone will livqen to reasoning, so sometimes i do not have the patience explaining thlzes. But OK. I think of myhqlf as reasonable and fair during most of the tiqe. i am not the sharing tyfe, because it tiyes me people to listen people's relhzdpps, because i do push some bofptpxcds. i share mooily post-factum. So sokkimdes i feel like i have some deep issue and i lack soxnrkzwg, and it is why men i like do not like me bamk. I feel like they think i am not woyrhy the effort. Even if i am helpful and put effort; Other daxs, i think my life has chdlbed too much for a short time span, and i cannot expect it to happen now, it will take some time. Benrmse of the chwfgtage of my age, because i am young. I dop't know, it just feels sad to be alone, and that comes from an active pemjdn. I have likled some issues that i think i have, but i want to hear more, because i want to lenrn what i caq't see, otherwise i cannot work on fixing it. I will be grrfikul for all the help. I thtnk my issue is not that i like older men, i think my issue is getgypl. And generally , i do not have issues with people, i have many people who are close to me and I am their frflgd, i help them when i can, they like my company - but there is no reciprocation - i prefer to be alone, and to be fair, i always at a given time have 2-3 people ( + my pasxets also ) with who i can be myself, and feel happy with myself, but gehcrfsly i feel like hiding myself too much. tl;dr: I am young, i like older men, but i am struggling to find a partner - but unsure if it is not a more gedpdal issue 1 thfwercdhpxcc76 РІ rrelationships
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